Mom,
I've recently realized that I'm too selfish and childish. how late!
Life is give-and-take, but I take too much and give a little.
Should I purchase my dreams, which possibly derive my sister of her chance to pursuit the ordinary thing and push my family into trouble? Should I keep that? Or should I give up and say goodbye to the effort I have made?
I know my desire for that thing is always crazy and not good for all my beloved, but ... I am simply not able to get rid of it.
I only think but never do.
I think that I was born to fulfill my dream and take every chance both of you've managed to give me for granted. Such a stupid girl I am.
I didn't realize your love.
when you told me to keep warm, I get annoyed with you, blaming you for thinking I'm still a child.
when you told me to eat more, again I get annoyed.
when you told me not to stay up late, again I get annoyed, accusing you of not knowing how many exercises I have to get done.
...
I did nothing for you, while you always care for me. I knew how hurt it could be if I parted with you, but I didn't appreciate every moment I have with you. I always think for only myself, never for you.
Such a selfish girl.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Sometimes Life can be a burden.