suddenly i feel the weight of my body is too heavy for my knees. Yesterday i played with my mind. Today i struggle with it. There is still something i can't (perhaps forever?) control: the emotion. Shining thoughts were there, shimmering, wavering; they were feeling in the air waiting for me to catch down and muse over and play with them, then abruptly vanished when emotion came. Like a naughty child comes and hides all my treasure away, he forces me to find, to doubt, to question myself "what are the values? what is the truth?" but at the same time keeps me from thinking and compels me to obey him.
He persuades me to give up, to hide, to run away. But, WEAKNESS pulls me back. improbable huh? =)
And are tears all i got after all?
There is a place of mine you don't know, or more exactly, you used to know. Maybe some day you can access it again. i dont know when.