From: my heart as well as my mind
To: u my dear
First of all, I want to say Thank u so much for all the things u have done to me. Although those things seem to make no sense to everyone, include u, they mean so much to me. U make me laugh, u brighten my days, u make me become a different person...
I was a bashful girl, and I still am. The very first day I met u, I didn't even notice u 'cause I knew that I was not so talkative and humorous to totally strangers. Almost all of my close friends are ones who sỉt around me in class so I get to know them through years. But the second time I met u, it was a day-long voluntary work that made me so excited and outgoing and I started talking to u. U were so friendly and humorous. It seemed to me that I had known u for years. But I thought u were just a friend, nothing more. But when I met u the day after, all the good things u did to others made me feel so confused. U were so kind, so caring. I felt like talking to u more to know u better.
As time passed by, u were exactly the one I wanted to be my closest friend. U did cutie suprising things that made me laugh, u gave me a ride on your bicycle around the lake buying me ice-cream, u gave me a cup of coffee as I was sleepy at work, u didn't mind walking by my side for a long long way just 'cause I felt like having a cup of sugarcane juice... I was never fed up with chatting with u. I remembered u once said to me that u also liked to hang out and chat with me so much and u might not know but what u said made me really really happy.
But the more I knew u, the more clearly I realized that u would never be my close friend. U are popular and everyone wants to make friends with u, just like me. U also have cool friends at school, who play basketball with u, know to sing, to dance and all the things that I had never ever tried to do. I remembered reading an entry in your blog, u wrote that u have many good friends and they are all special to u but u only have one close friend and that is all u need. That one is the one to whom u can tell everything, the one who " hold your cold hand and cool down your hot heart" and u also wrote in another entry that u have already found that one. Lucky u! I used to try to be your close friend but I think It's high time for me to give up. I think u just consider me as another friend among yours. I know someone like me would never fit u.
I think that from this time on, I won't keep in touch with u anymore. I will not send u messages, which I used to do every single day in the past, I will not be online to chat with u, when I meet u at work, I will be busy so that I won't have time to look at your smile. That is the only way I can do to forget u and all the memorable things u have done to me. I know that things I am going to do will make u disappointed but u will soon forget me, surely, 'cause u have too many good friends around u and one close friend beside u to make me fade away.
Thank u so much, again. I will try my best to forget u, my dear...
