from: me
to: the only one who always stands by me whenever i'm sad...the one who means most to me... [in our class]
i know its quite a short time ever since we became friends. maybe too short to know if u're really the one for me, the one who will be with me ever after, the one who will walk with me in my way... i'm just afraid to believe in something, cuz my trust was broken so many times before...i just dont wanna be broken down once again...but now i feel u're the only one here that really cares bout me. thank u so much, honey, cuz i know i'm such a silly, crazy n weird pervert that no one cares about. but u do...
i just want u 2 know that u're not useless at all. i'm the one
). people think i'm strong, but actually its becuz i've cried too much before n now have no more tears to shed...
but when i'm laughing, u can see that i'm crying inside... and when i'm crying, u can see that i just cant stand anymore...
i always think i'm alone... cuz no one's by my side... no one's walking my way... even those who were...they now slip out of my life...maybe they just cant stand my darkness...n decide to leave for another one...
i found my faith... but i lost it painfully... cuz i put all my trust...but then broken down... becuz the one i loved most... left me all alone...
u know??! when u've hurt too much...u're not hurt anymore...
i know this is so crazy...but crazie is me...
i know this is weird... but weird is me...
so...
at least for now u're the most important person in my life...these days i have much trouble to go through...pleeze dont leave me alone as everyone does to me...
stay here...by my side...
becuz whenever i see ur face...i find peace in my mind...
but when u're not there... i find myself empty...
pleeze stay here with me...
u said i helped u numerous times but u did nothing for me...dont be so unconfident...cuz the greatest thing u do for me is just staying there for me all the time...just stay there...listening to my words...listening to my mind...
i used to be different...i used to be better...but now i'm just a useless one...without u i'll be falling down...i'm trying to stand still just becuz of u...
n the biggest thing i wanna know: do i mean to u as much as u do to me??! i'm never someone in my someone's life...so i'm just always afraid that everyone i ever loved n put my trust in will vanish soon n leave me alone...just like before...i'm sorry for tying u down like this...but u're the only one who always stay there for such a worthless pervert like me...
[sorrie u guys... this is quite long, becuz i'm so emotional rite now...]
[n this last line for my important one: after reading all those lines, dont ever think that i'm a les!!! =))...but actually sometimes i think if i were a guy, i would never let V be near u so =)):">...]