Everyday Diary

Jesus, the hell with all of this! Finally I could feel connected to myself. But gosh, sometimes I just hate myself so so so much! Damn it! Why I am the way I am! Why I have to f*** things up all the time! Why cant just look forward and move on with my damn life! Why cant just be strong and stop dragging the past into the present! Why cant just be grateful for life and everything! Why cant just stop being so damn desperate, needy, lonely here! F***, I HATE myself when I am like this! Just lay there and whine and whine and whine! I am f****** sick n tired of this whole thing! Tired of always dont even know what the hell I really feel, think, want, need! What the hell is wrong with me???

Gosh, I am not gonna ever ever ever get to anywhere if I keep being this way! But f***, I dont know what I gotta do to be able to get outta this shit!

Ok, I feel a little better now...
Sorry guys, my life rite now totally sucks, so...No, actually its pretty good. Its just that me being so damn ungrateful for everything that have happened so far. Yup, gratitude is discipline, and a gift also, it seems like I dont wanna take it right now. Gosh, I wish I had a best friend! I'd give away everything if I just could have a best friend besides myself...I love myself! :D

May, 10th, 2004
WA, US
 
I am getting to know everyone here, so dont worry sis Trang

2 Huong: yeah... I was trying to be nice to one girl in my school too. But I dont know why she keeps on looking down on me and treats me like dirt. So I give up. Dont give a shit about that. Sometimes being nice is not an option. Choose to speak up, girl! ;;)

2 Guest: Is this guest this time Tha?o ? *wonder* :D :D

2 Son: Im not really good at bball la! Im practicing! You're good too! Hey summer is coming, wanna go to HK and chek out my guy ;)

2 Xoa`i: U asked me how to lose weight, didnt you? My advice is "to sleep less"!

My Diary - - - - *_*
I dont know what the heck is goin on between me and him. It is so obvious in my website that I am talking about him... but he doesnt show up... I feel kinda hopeless... Maybe he doesnt like me? :( fine, i wont disturb him

oh yeah, so 5 people already know about my story (an autobiography, 2 b exact). I wrote this while I was feeling really great about our relationship... But now Im running out of inspiration... I could not write more... I am very thankful to those who have encouraged me and told me that they had really enjoyed this story! ;) :)

yahoo! My little cutie sister is coming! WE'RE GONNA ROCK! I miss her so so much ;) hahah finally, we can get together, I really need someone to be beside me now! :)

cheerz
 
2 Hương & Phằng :D : i only have like 3 or 4 friends at school....i dont care about others...coz those kids are so arrogant...or maybe i am :D watever...
so much work to do...im gonna die before the due date :((
 
Yah, Hang I am the guest this time. For some stupid reason I always forgot to log in.
I actually like a lot of kids at school. The problem is they don't like me 8-} 8-} 8-}
Just kidding! A little sarcastic...............
I had the same feeling with Ms Trang at a lot of times since I came here.
I always feel like all people around me don't understand me a little bit and noone seems to care about me truly.
And then I question myself whether I have cared enough for others and then I concluded that I am just too immature and selfish.
I know everyone here pretty much. Hoài anh and Hương are very close to me.
And Ms TRang, just one question for you: Were you an exchange student last year and are enrolling college right now.
My dairy:
Today is peaceful
 
hehehe... yah i was right

Oh yesterday was arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh AWESOME!

He said "bye Phoebe" to me! That was so sos sososososososoosoosoo SWEET

I could not do any work yesterday cuz I couldnt help thinkin about that :">

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

:p :D
 
I recieved a call yesterday and then I cried..............I recieved an email yesterday and I couldn't stop thinking about it..............This time is too hard for me...........
Now I feel like I don't understand myself any more and I am so skeptical about my value, my virtues...............
I am so confused about everything.
I feel guilty, angry, betrayed......................
The worst thing is I don't know if what I have done so far is wrong or right.
I hope I can cry now but I am not in the mood to do that.............
Lawrence High school library, May 19, 04 Lawrence, Ks
 
To Thao: what happened? stay strong, my dear.
I am gonna call you, ok?
Luv,
DH
 
tặng mọi người nè:

Why not today
Laugh a little
Write a love letter
Share your treasures
Reach a forgotten friend
Forgive an enemy
Sing a song
Show your gratitude
Call your parents
Buy a gift
Send a card



This should be your to-do list instead of "homework, assignment..," rite? ;)
Does anyone wanna add something to my to-do list? :)


To Thảo: I called but couln't get you. Talk to you later. Luv,
 
Look outside
See a guy
Go, say Hi
He replies
Don't be shy
He's so kind
..................
 
To Hương:
There are two bitches from my chương trình trao đổi văn hóa, who talked trash to me.The way they criticized me hurt my pride.
The bad thing is I couldn't fight back as it will just hurt me more.........................................
I feel much better today.
I am kind of disappointed as I cried.
BUt I know I am still young and immature.........................so I should permit myself such callow things.
Thanks for calling.
IT is good feeling when you know that there is someone on your side..................
 
report:
I accomplished 9 out of 10 things in my to-do list :D well, you know which one is left over.
 
oh f*** them man! Tha?o, be strong la, even they had talked crap about you, ignore them, cuz if u had reponded by criticizing them, u would be like them ;)

Last night is the saddest night ever for me, I guess... I've been happy since I was into this "affair".. but last night, yeah, he did hurt my feeling, somehow... it was an action, which I thought he wanted to INDIRECTLY show that he doesnt like me... well

i guess it's okay now... gotta thank him for showin me that :)

Damn, exams are coming... if i dont work my butt off, I cant get Honour Roll or any UNI... gruuu :p
 
Let me gess : Reach a forgotten friend

unfortunately, u r wrong. :biggrin: I did contact a long lost friend. The only thing I didn't do was write a love letter :tongue:

Well, tmr is prom. Not so excited though. I am looking forward to graduation instead. Yeah, only 7 days left. 8-}
 
Nguyễn Diệu Hương đã viết:
unfortunately, u r wrong. :biggrin: I did contact a long lost friend. The only thing I didn't do was write a love letter :tongue:}

So why didn't u write it ? Let me gess. U do it in your dream ?
 
prom prom.. it was fine, just fine. I danced for a while. I hate slow dance since you need a partner and I don't have a date.
Well, everybody loves my dress, which is really original :))
hum.. the only person I want to see at prom didn't go. Stupid boy, what did he stay on campus for?
after all, prom is just a big dance when you really dress up.

To-do list for tmr:
Laugh a lot
Sleep a lot
Walk a lot
Eat a lot :D
 
I am getting excited these days..................
3 more days and I will be home again............................
I actually feel a little sad. I don't know why but I might miss something here...........
You could have invited you, Hương!
To Hằng: are you feeling better now!
 
i disagree with hương abt prom. it's not just sth that u dress up for!! it's sth that happens to give u guys a chance to ẹnoy urself, not just some big dance!!
 
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