Nguyễn Minh Nguyệt
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Okay, I cried again... That's the stupid thing number one, the dumb thing number two is that I was crying during watching that sappy movie. -__-;; Agr...
*shrug* Can't help it -TT_TT I'm just blessed with so much tears to shed. ^^ But really, it makes me start to ponder. Life is so short... too short.... how am I gonna live it now?
I remembered when I was five, I was praying everyday to get taller ( though, I've been short since elementary school >''< ) to be able to sit on the front seat. Come on, you, too know that every kid's dream was to sit on the front. *grin* and to be able to go on the rides " 150cm and over" with Viet and Hai... to be able to climb on Hai's super tall bike ^^ That was my childhood dream...
When I grew a little more, I wanted to get near sighted since I thought glasses would make me look smarter ^_^ *grinning stupidly*
And when I became a teenager, I hoped to turn eighteen fast, to got all the privilages in the world... ^-^ To be able to date, to be able to put on make up on ( don't look at me *shrug* papa's rule ^^) Hahah how silly.
You can laugh at me, but... didn't you think the same thing?
And now look at me... eighteen, afraid and coward.
I know, there are a lot of things I didn't wait. A lot of things I did that was not so right. But over all I'm still a good girl, and I haven't gone overboard with the naughty things. I'm half German, like Alex said. LOL What were you expecting of me? -///-
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Well, anyways, now it's not time to talk about my sinful deeds; it just occured to me that I should start to think about my life now. I really wonder how we'll look in 5 years. Well, ^_^ I can see Tom totally relaxed with a glass of Beer in front of the TV set ( patting his beer belly ^^ ); I can see Alex being a clubbing mom ^^ or even Long still keeping his play boy - er ... - not - so - really ( jesus, did I just said that bunch of nonsense? Yay I made up a word again *roll eyes* excuse me; I'm really hyper today @_@) and flirting with... wait a minute, he got each a Europe, Asian, African girlfriend already. Hmmm... so I guess in those next 5 years he's gonna finish his collection ^^ I'm kidding honey ^-^v
Anyways, so... where will I be in that picture? I really can't see myself doing any of those.
But you know what, now I'm eighteen, and I hate it.
I hate how I look, I hate how I talk andI hate what I do. Merely of my cowardice. I'm tired of all that...
~*~*~
Today was a rough day. Relaxing but rough.
The B-day party was fun ^_^ Alex and I had some fun talking how stupid those blondes are to put on so much make up -__-;; seriously that girl made herself look like a fish, the other like a racoon. I am not exaggerating.. *sigh* Kids nowadays... Okay, I'm not better anyways, but... hey, admit it, I don't look like a basa fish! -__-;;
As always, we had some dancing going on, mostly Alex and Imene were going at it again. Aish... and how come I got all the reputation of being "inappropriate dancer"? Jees... -__-;; *yawn* Nikki is too tired today and I didn't get a lot of stretching either. Dancing made my bones pop like... er... popcorn!
Anyways, as soon as we were on our way home; things got yucky.
Where we were waiting was not that much of a nice neighbourhood. You know, all that crap, Mexican gang, African- American gangs --__-- sometimes I really wonder " Are ppl really that sedentary to come up with taht sh!t?"
Anyways, standing at the corner of the street, next to the poll, with clothes barely hanging on, all soaking wet, hair down, water dripping .. was not a good idea. Well, you get the picture.
B@st@rds. Sorry. But those ppl really piss me off.
First it's an SUV with a bunch of white kids, 17-18 probably stopping at the lights, starting the whistling and winking again. Morons.
Then there was a sports care passing by, and another cheap looking piece of **** that was falling apart on the road, with a some guy on the passenger seat waving. Yuck. It disgusts me.
I don't know. Should I blame them or myself for looking so much like... nevermind. But... *sigh* how come this country , this society is so good at belittling people, crushing all the pride, the arrogance that I once held? How come you get to feel so small and helpless and cheap under nasty glances? I really don't understand...
That made me start to ponder. What the heck was I doing here? Why on earth did I threw everything away to take back this sh!t?
I don't know...
But the fact is that, I'm here. No option rather than deal with it. And .. okay, it's not that bad; there were good times,too.
As I was watching the sun coming down on the Mississipi, I told myself "Honey, you're alive, that counts." Yeah, I'm still alive. That's good enough for me...
How will I turn on in 5 years? I don't know... It might be like the year book, ppl start all that corny relationship stuff and I'm the only one studying. LOL, just to be like the "Most studious person" I am ( was voted ) LOL. What did they have in their head to vote like that? Jesus! I can see myself as the laziest @ss over here, @__@ why studious?!
Oh, and I named my dog BoBo, by the way ^^ I thought it's cute. It has some memories with me and... ^^ it matches Hyuk's dog's name bbo bbo. Ahh.. that was pretty random *grin*
*shrug* Can't help it -TT_TT I'm just blessed with so much tears to shed. ^^ But really, it makes me start to ponder. Life is so short... too short.... how am I gonna live it now?
I remembered when I was five, I was praying everyday to get taller ( though, I've been short since elementary school >''< ) to be able to sit on the front seat. Come on, you, too know that every kid's dream was to sit on the front. *grin* and to be able to go on the rides " 150cm and over" with Viet and Hai... to be able to climb on Hai's super tall bike ^^ That was my childhood dream...
When I grew a little more, I wanted to get near sighted since I thought glasses would make me look smarter ^_^ *grinning stupidly*
And when I became a teenager, I hoped to turn eighteen fast, to got all the privilages in the world... ^-^ To be able to date, to be able to put on make up on ( don't look at me *shrug* papa's rule ^^) Hahah how silly.
You can laugh at me, but... didn't you think the same thing?
And now look at me... eighteen, afraid and coward.
I know, there are a lot of things I didn't wait. A lot of things I did that was not so right. But over all I'm still a good girl, and I haven't gone overboard with the naughty things. I'm half German, like Alex said. LOL What were you expecting of me? -///-
~_~_~_~_~
Well, anyways, now it's not time to talk about my sinful deeds; it just occured to me that I should start to think about my life now. I really wonder how we'll look in 5 years. Well, ^_^ I can see Tom totally relaxed with a glass of Beer in front of the TV set ( patting his beer belly ^^ ); I can see Alex being a clubbing mom ^^ or even Long still keeping his play boy - er ... - not - so - really ( jesus, did I just said that bunch of nonsense? Yay I made up a word again *roll eyes* excuse me; I'm really hyper today @_@) and flirting with... wait a minute, he got each a Europe, Asian, African girlfriend already. Hmmm... so I guess in those next 5 years he's gonna finish his collection ^^ I'm kidding honey ^-^v
Anyways, so... where will I be in that picture? I really can't see myself doing any of those.
But you know what, now I'm eighteen, and I hate it.
I hate how I look, I hate how I talk andI hate what I do. Merely of my cowardice. I'm tired of all that...
~*~*~
Today was a rough day. Relaxing but rough.
The B-day party was fun ^_^ Alex and I had some fun talking how stupid those blondes are to put on so much make up -__-;; seriously that girl made herself look like a fish, the other like a racoon. I am not exaggerating.. *sigh* Kids nowadays... Okay, I'm not better anyways, but... hey, admit it, I don't look like a basa fish! -__-;;
As always, we had some dancing going on, mostly Alex and Imene were going at it again. Aish... and how come I got all the reputation of being "inappropriate dancer"? Jees... -__-;; *yawn* Nikki is too tired today and I didn't get a lot of stretching either. Dancing made my bones pop like... er... popcorn!
Anyways, as soon as we were on our way home; things got yucky.
Where we were waiting was not that much of a nice neighbourhood. You know, all that crap, Mexican gang, African- American gangs --__-- sometimes I really wonder " Are ppl really that sedentary to come up with taht sh!t?"
Anyways, standing at the corner of the street, next to the poll, with clothes barely hanging on, all soaking wet, hair down, water dripping .. was not a good idea. Well, you get the picture.
B@st@rds. Sorry. But those ppl really piss me off.
First it's an SUV with a bunch of white kids, 17-18 probably stopping at the lights, starting the whistling and winking again. Morons.
Then there was a sports care passing by, and another cheap looking piece of **** that was falling apart on the road, with a some guy on the passenger seat waving. Yuck. It disgusts me.
I don't know. Should I blame them or myself for looking so much like... nevermind. But... *sigh* how come this country , this society is so good at belittling people, crushing all the pride, the arrogance that I once held? How come you get to feel so small and helpless and cheap under nasty glances? I really don't understand...
That made me start to ponder. What the heck was I doing here? Why on earth did I threw everything away to take back this sh!t?
I don't know...
But the fact is that, I'm here. No option rather than deal with it. And .. okay, it's not that bad; there were good times,too.
As I was watching the sun coming down on the Mississipi, I told myself "Honey, you're alive, that counts." Yeah, I'm still alive. That's good enough for me...
How will I turn on in 5 years? I don't know... It might be like the year book, ppl start all that corny relationship stuff and I'm the only one studying. LOL, just to be like the "Most studious person" I am ( was voted ) LOL. What did they have in their head to vote like that? Jesus! I can see myself as the laziest @ss over here, @__@ why studious?!
Oh, and I named my dog BoBo, by the way ^^ I thought it's cute. It has some memories with me and... ^^ it matches Hyuk's dog's name bbo bbo. Ahh.. that was pretty random *grin*
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