I'm getting more and more like him.... feeling as if it's all happening to someone else... not me... all of this... it doesn't seem real at all..... all the things we did... the kissing, the loving, everything... it isn't me at all..... keep doing what I should do.... feeling sad when I should be sad, feeling happy when I should be happy, smile when I should smile, love when I should love..... but now..... I don't even know what should I feel? It's so sad that I'm not sad at all..... am I.... just too evil? Am I.... just toying with other's feeling? Am I.... bad? It's so guilty every time I kiss her, and it's so hurt everytime we embraces..... and.... it's so happy.... to do it.... once last time..... both of us should now be released from the curse.... that we laid upon ourselves..... forgive me.....