Your definition about "close friend": A close friend is a friend who comes to you right by the time you meet the most difficult state.
These words are divine to me, like a sanctorum where I visit as I feel despairing. Then you destroy the whole world of heaven in my heart by showing me the reversed truth: You never come when I need a real friend the most. Who the hell can believe your words are sincere? You never ask me how I am, even just a word.
I preserve my belief for a feeling that you always do the right things. But standing may reach its limitation and more than ever, I feel the hopelessness is tormenting me. How on earth can you say such those words easily: We are close friends. Or it is just my illumination?
You are pushing me far away from you, not for my feeling, but for how you behave.